Afternoon Insight

When you find yourself facing the "unknown" in the form of a question or a situation, this is when there's opportunity for growth and new knowledge

But this is also a time that instead of facing that question mark and finding the answer, discovering new meanings, and unveiling the unknown
... we tend to put ourselves down and loose faith, loose confidence, and become so scared that finally we give up. We give up on us

Some will spend our entire lives scared, believing that we're not good enough, not worthy, not talented, not smart, not capable.... without realizing that everyone lives every second of their lives in this same situation!

The difference is in what we choose to do with that question, with that challenge, with that opportunity that's presented to us

Pull me DOWN!

When I close my eyes I feel radiant, I feel happy- at last
When i open my eyes I feel sad- cause I'm so far away (FROM WERE I THINK I AM)

Pull me down, Pull me down- So I can feel grounded
Let me feel the pain, and let me feel the happiness
Pull me down, Pull me down- So I can finally feel GROUNDED

when I raise too high up- PULL ME DOWN!
when I fly further and further away from myself- PULL ME DOWN!
PULL ME DOWN! where my roots begin, where my roots expand.

I want to feel the soil vibrations beneath my soles rising within- upwards and outwards
I want to feel the texture with my toes, I want to feel the essence
I WANT TO TASTE IT
NOURISHING EMOTIONS, OH SUCH A CALMING SIGHT -TO BE MYSELF IN AND OUT-

And when I open my eyes I want to see.
I want to focus. on my feet. on my head. on my stand. on myself. on the world around me
and WHEN I OPEN MY EYES I WANT TO feel the soil, the energy RUNNING through me
WHEN I OPEN MY EYES I WANT TO feel nature, the energy connecting me with the universe

When I open my eyes I want to see whats inside DIFFUSING OUT
I want to feel the same, BE the same, ACT THE SAME
I want to see me, FEEL ME - BE my truth - my honest SELF

Pull me down, Pull me down- So I can feel grounded
Let me feel AND BE PROUD OF MY DARKNESS, LET ME FEEL AND BE PROUD OF MY BRIGHTNESS
Pull me down, Pull me down- So I can finally feel GROUNDED
LET ME FEEL MY FEARS. BE MY FEARS. AND OUTGROW THEM

GIVE ME STRENGTH, GIVE ME CONFIDENCE ...CAUSE I FINALLY KNOW WHO I AM
GIVE ME WISDOM, GIVE ME COURAGE ... TO BECOME WHO I FINALLY BELIEVE I AM


So I can feel that who I am is the same as my OWN perceptions


PULL ME DOWN... SO I CAN CLOSE MY EYES AND FEEL PROUD, SO I CAN OPEN MY EYES AND BE PROUD
SO I CAN CLOSE MY EYES AND FEEL HAPPY, SO I CAN OPEN MY EYES AND BE HAPPY
SO I CAN CLOSE MY EYES AND FEEL GROUNDED, SO I CAN OPEN MY EYES AND BE GROUNDED
SO I CAN CLOSE MY EYES AND FEEL WHOLE, SO I CAN OPEN MY EYES AND BE WHOLE
SO I CAN CLOSE MY EYES AND RECOGNIZE MYSELF, SO I CAN OPEN MY EYES AND MY REFLECTION ITS MY TRUE ESSENCE

His name was Balance

... I heard everyone is looking for him
at different times, in different levels, for different reasons... I know once even you where looking for him~ some how~ some day you found yourself calling for him. Calling his name. I know.. cause I've been there myself.

Oh Balance! I miss you sometimes more than others. Oh Balance... and slowly, silently you let a sight escape into the air...and that was it

I once thought I found him "forever happily ever after" but I was wrong.....
away he went
in one breath .... away... like if he'd never existed

and it takes time,
it takes silence,
it takes pain,
it takes insanity,
it takes peace, and
it takes courage

it takes
and it takes....
sometimes it feels that all he does is take and take....away

and I keep asking... When its going to be the day he'll stay for good?
cause right now I feel like I am standing naked with all my leaves on the ground
and I am there .... in front of everybody... standing still... embarrassed
sometimes I feel like I'm blind and I don't know if what I see its the light of the moon guiding me, or simply it's the light of a car about to run over me

Oh Balance I miss you so much! and you feel like a dream I'll never reach.
it feels like you are that essential nutrient I need to live in tuned with existence- but I am not Eve and you are not hanging from a tree ready to be picked.

I once asked for strength to face my challenges and give myself a chance for growth and wisdom.I once asked for a chance... I don't pray but I would -if you told me that it would help. I shouted to the five winds more than once asking for you, asking for a sign!
... but you you never said anything

So now after all that time,of searching---- and searching
Here I am. Walking on my path, my journey ~ went through the scariest neighborhoods I've ever seen. In the worst time and season possible. But here I go... for my existence! for myself! Because I am more than my body, I am more than this mind~ Here I go in search of my true name/true self. In search of my place!

Cause Balance its the equilibrium within yourself no matter season, situation, or challenge that moves upon you. It's your constant blooming state, its knowing yourself and believing you're perfect.

So after all that I realized I should be named Balance not "him"!

Lets Wear Smiles

Lets stop looking at old photographs
seeking and searching for what we once had
Lets smile, lets smile

Lets sit in silence, skin to skin
and let the air that I breath, be yours
Lets smile, lets live

Lets buy smiles
until a half moon rises in our hearts
Lets wear smiles
until our laughs are heard, once again
Lets smile, lets laugh

Lets dance feet to feet
Lets walk together to the highest peak
Lets live, lets live

Lets forget our worries
Lets forget our negativity
Lets live, lets live

Lets leave our window open to let the light in
Lets take a deep breath in, and let life nourish you
lets live, lets live

Lets buy smiles until a half moon rises in our hearts, in our lives
Lets wear smiles until our laughs are heard again
and like in a spell
its contagious towards the open space!

lets smile,
lets laugh,
lets love,
lets live

Tic-Tac

Hey! have you heard, that tic-tac?
its ticking so fast that I lost track of time
and it feels like life is slipping by...
......... slipping away- through my fingers
and the harder I try to hold on, the further away it goes,
the faster it ticks by

no more rushed decisions, no more a pumping heart
just silent, trapped, dry emotions
just us, running behind- trying so hard to catch up
it all turn into a numb dream
and once I had such beautiful ones.

I remember we used to think they would become real, someday
but those are still sleeping on a pillow that we've been collecting through age
no more innocent eyes instead now untruthful ones

Hey have your heard that tic-tac?

if I stopped calling
don't be upset its not I haven't thought of you
is not that I stopped loving you, missing you
its just that time is flying by
and it just seems that I cant catch up with time

This time, so confusing you feel so close and yet so far
everything seems a superficial state
did we all turned dried- inside out?

I once dreamed that I wouldn't take part of this
but here I am.... running
trying to catch up with time... like you running by my side

.... are we all loosing touch
forgetting who we are
getting lost in time
without even knowing where we are or where do we want to end up
it seems that I would be running behind time until my heart runs out of time
but in the mean time I guess I will be running
trying to catch up
giving meaning to this life- my life
who I am and who I had become

have you heard, that tic-tac?

Oh So Hard

Oh.... oh so hard
so hard to move out from our comfort zone
Fly away.... oh... fly away
Fly away to those dreams you once gave up
try at least to reach them
... you never know... you might get close to them

Oh... oh so hard
so hard to push out... to push ourselves into new challenges
Fly away... oh... fly away
Fly away to those dreams... you look at from time to time
fly... fly high cause you might be able to hold them close
at least for a while

I know its hard....
but just remember that this is YOUR life
yours
and it wouldn't be yours, if at least you don't try
so fly... fly away

Untitled- life

Life: A maze of strange opportunities...

coincidences, some say... i don't know
A reason behind... i still don't know
Choices and Chances.... yes! Life is filled with those... that i do know

Life: A maze of strange opportunities...
like

Becoming aware
filling ourselves with insight
letting corrupted tension in our spine... go... dissipate when its over us

Life: A maze of strange opportunities...
like

learning. growing.
overcoming obstacles and challenges.

Life: its at the end of every road
Life where every path leads us to

where we decide to go and which path to take
make the best- fullest in every step
no corruptions. transparent. true to ourselves.

Life: a maze of strange opportunities....