Expansion and Contraction

Expansion and Contraction-
the duality of the two is what makes me so exhausted.
The need to control how much I let go, how much I show of myself...
-like an ice cube in a hot summer day that it doesn't want to melt.
How much more energy it takes to stay as an ice cube,
rather than let go and become fluid- like fluid water.

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The Universe is there, available to us
We just need to reach and embodied it.

The Power of Fear

When one opens up and is its fullest, there is no greater sense of freedom.
So what stops us? - for this should be our permanent state of being?

... the fear of being judged, not accepted, feared, hurt, not welcomed, ignored...

In fact it is our Fear the only one bringing feelings of insecurity, comfortless, and self-judgement
- NOT the freedom of being our true selves!

Breath in, and let it all Out!

When the day darkens in full summer.
Breath in and let it all out
If your dreams where crashed, if they were big and you had nowhere to put them. Breath in and let it all out.
When you feel like you are dying more than living. Breath in and let it all out.
When you feel your head is racing faster than your heart is pumping. Breath in and let it all out.
There's no secret potion, just follow your heart and leave your fears behind.

Mantra for 2013

I shall breath into presence/ especially during those times of uncomfort. I shall connect with my spirit/ that shines beneath the chaos of the self and the world around me/ where there's a deep silence and sense of peace murmured in the background. I shall respond not react to situations that trigger me/ as I won't condemned the messenger or myself. I shall connect with truthful love within/ be energy and vibrations within the forces of life/ rather than identifying to myself as a self described by a name, past experiences, future expectations, pains, accomplishments, and desires. I shall not move in life/ for the means to reach a goal to enhance my sense of self worth, but for inspiration, love, and life force. I shall let go of emotions that feed my ego and give me a sense of purpose, self-pity, or excuses/ I shall live in the moment consciously/ I shall be playful/ I shall surrender to love, life, and my spirit!

The Mayan Calendar

The winter solstice days begin to become longer once again as earth comes closer to the sun. With the winter solstice came the end of the mayan calendar for some, brought fears of the end of the world for others, the beginning of a new era, a new era of consciousness. For me these weeks brought a lot of questions of life understanding and with these came doubts. Senseless events where I have no understanding of a reason why. I could feel my pain and broken heart, to the point of judgement if its right to feel such pain, if its normal. Sometimes there is no explanation with the mind to those senseless events because we feel such pain that nothing our mind says will make us feel better. Our constant will to suppress pain, to be happy, feel good at all times to be good, do good to feed our self, our ego, our self worth to the point I had to question myself of my sanity, if its ok to feel such pain. But this is the time to surrender to the pain and understand everything in life has its place within the totality. Even though we can't understand it with our minds the answer is in love and within the expression of our essence.

This Moment

For just a second, forget of who you are. let go of that sense of self. For just a second, forget of your past. let go of self judgements, fears, pain, and assumptions. For just a second, let go and breath in this precious moment that's now. For just a second, forget about the future. let go of your expectations, hopes of self, and desires. For just a second let go. breath and let the love within resurface. there is no better you than who you are now. Rejoice in who you are now! Your unique expression of your essence in this moment! Surrender to yourself in this moment!