The Eternal Flame

When we rely on others, expect from others...
we give our power away and therefore,
we give away our freedom.

I soon then came to realize,
that as confusion dissipates and clarity sets.
I come to grasp and feel that my power has never left me.
nothing was ever lost or given away,
it always resided within.

Revelations

As all life resides in balance with all that is; our gifts are able to arise to its fullest potential when we are allowed the space to do so. Sometimes we are challenged by others, a storm between our expectations and with what is..., so give thanks to those who challenge you- without the feeling of being tested your true power wouldn't be revealed.

The Warrior of Light

My house is haunted 
and there is nowhere to go 
I heard my mother say that in this process 
we are raw to our skin 
I can say that is exactly how I feel 
my skin, bare to the flames of fire 

I saw a ghost the other day 
it changed shape 
fear overtook me 
and I felt as if it touch me 
it would stick to me forever 
it had no face but when I looked  
it laughed at me 


There are moments of helplessness 
there are moments that the child within all she does is cry in anguish 
and the adolescence fights until she gets caught in wire 
and bleeds with her own anger and drowns in her own pain 
there are moments that the great mother comes with her gentle touch and caresses my face 
I can feel her love, I can feel the love within 
and for a brief moment there is acceptance, there is compassion, and comfort 


This is the journey of the warrior of light, 
and so far I can't tell you how it will end 
all I can say is that my stomach lives in a knot so tight that I'm choking 
the ghosts of fears hunt me everyday 
and the light within me and the beauty around me reminds me of my potential 
so I keep on going, one step at time 
one lesson at a time shining light into the darkest parts of myself

Grace

Grace,
I know
I know you reside in the depths
of the ocean of within.

I call upon you, Grace
come lift me
thus I am drowning in the fierce winds of grief.

Grace,
I know you
I've felt you before
and I know you are there, still.

I call for the full moon
to rise,
to bring high tides
to resurface the ocean from within
and reveal you.

Grace,
I know you are there!
I feel you at my very core.
Come out! I beg of you...
and conquer my life,
my heart,
my sight,
in this challenging time.

Today, the Earth is mourning

Today,
the Earth is mourning,
cause my heart, today, lays ten feet beneath the ground.
Goodbye my love. Goodbye.

Today, the sky is crying,
silently letting go...
of the expectations of tomorrow.

Farewell to the memories,
of a distant future.
And with the last sight,
remembering the days that we once had.

Today,
the Earth is mourning,
cause my heart, today, lays ten feet beneath the ground.
Goodbye my love. Goodbye.

So just for today,
I will let the river run,
I will let the sky fall in thunder and storm,
cause I know tomorrow it will nourish me somehow.
Somehow, I trust the sun will shine again,
and what once was gone,
will resurface transformed.

Today,
the Earth is mourning,
cause my heart, today, lays ten feet beneath the ground.
Goodbye my love. Goodbye.

In my Heart Today

Blue skies, the sound of birds, and wind chimes bring a sense of hope and possibilities to my heart.
I cannot ignore though the sadness that my heart feels today,
as I cant ignore the ring of love that holds and embraces my sore chest.

How can I live my life feeling that so many empty spaces exist in the world,
spaces that are silent were compassion and passion should live in them,
moments of covering or hiding, when discovering and allowance should live in them,
spaces were we believe ignoring is the safest, healthiest, and most reasonable thing to do.
Behaviors that shouldn't be allowed, that are NOT allowed, to my perception of what Love represents!
behaviors that can be changed with kindness and community.

When did I started to believe that I can not heal? myself and what is around me.
When did I began to believe that this is what it is... that no big changes can occur because our society, our systems would collapse.
The world is just too big. The damage is just too big... already too big.

If I am connected to all, then every second there is a part of me that dies and reborns.
If that is not a possibility what is it then?

True Nature

You can call me tree, cedar, willow....
It really doesn't matter to me,
I know who I am anyways

As I stand strong
with my roots expanding into Mother Earth
juices of love and health flow back to me
in balance and with strength
I am here occupying this space

Where I stand
my branches reaching the unknown of Father Sky
sighs of wisdom, caressing me
shouts of thunder, challenge me
No limits my branches have, against gravity I grow
towards infinity and the mysteries of life
I am here occupying this space
I am free

Words as my Voice

As the rain has a name,
As the rain has a voice,
I have them too.
As the rain has a reason to be,
I have one too.

As the ocean to be calm and wild
As the ocean to have and end for the sight
I have one too
As the ocean that has an inner world
I have one too.

As the seasons to be part of a cycle
I take part too.
As a whole, as a fragment
I’m one as I’m all.

As the sky that has two faces, that make one
As the sky that has an imaginary side
As the sky that says to much with no words spoken
I am too. I have them too.

As the sky with fallen meteors resting in a nest,
As the sky with a hanging dream,
As the sky holding a mystery, holding the unknown,
I live that too, with no beginning and no end.

As the breeze sings
As the wind tells
As the hurricane shouts
My words as my voice


`This poem was updated from one that I wrote in 2007`

Open your Eyes!

One day, my eyes opened,
realizing that my "doings"
prevent me from "being"
today's society is set for that conditioning to happen.

One day, my eyes opened,
realizing that most of the time, I chose blindness
I chose to give in to fear,
I chose to suppress my desires, to suppress my pain- to suppress, to control...

One day, my eyes opened
realizing we lost our sense of worth,
we fear that without our "needs and wants" we are nothing.
We forgot about our spirit.
We forget to ask more "Why's",
We forget that we are all interconnected in the web of life.
Our body, a symbiosis on itself,
we are part of the whole.
Our actions bring consequences.
Our hatred, spreads as our love does
Our consciousness spreads, as our ignorance does.
So why not next time chose to act with an open heart.

We stopped asking questions.
We lost hope.
We stopped listening to the wisdom of nature.
But there is still a chance.

One day, my eyes opened,
and I want to share my sight with you:
Our world as we once knew it, is ending.
We are destroying our resources,
We are destroying ourselves and every living creature,
We are destroying our home.
Its time to open our eyes,
Its time to open our hearts,
think not only of today but tomorrow as well.
Its time to believe in love and respect.
Its time to ask for forgiveness to our spirit, to our bodies, to our earth.
Its time to come back to ourselves as body, mind, and spirit.
Its time for you to open your eyes too!
Its time for you to share your sight with opened eyes as well!

My Masculine Nature for Survival.

Words- like a striking thunder
Action. Strong movement, with confidence
-like the most feared warrior in a little girls body.
Like any warrior with a mission of freedom and revenge.
Skin- with scars, hard, non-permeable. A skin that soon developed thorns.
Character- fierce as a lion.

Time. Love. Re-Connection.
Flesh to Bone.
Heart to Spirit.
Fear to Love.
Survival to Emotion.

Darkness was no longer an inspiration but frightening.
Thorns fall like leaves in Autumn.
skin became soft.
flesh became raw and open.
Roars became cries and hopeful laughters.
what once was rigid became malleable.
Feminine Energy emerging, resurfacing like a rising moon.
awkward.
Feelings of weakness and confusion.
A core yearn to nurture, nourish, heal and create the woman and the little girl.

Abundance. Gratitude. Love.
inhabiting for the first time flesh, bone, and spirit.
Re-learning to find balance between feminine and masculine.
light and dark.
receive and give.
open and closed.

Hope For You and Me

We are connected.
a seed becomes a tree and comes into this world knowing what is meant to do in this life.
And it is.
Us, Humans, we spend our entire life trying to figure out-
our purpose, seeking for the road to happiness, working for financial freedom, fame, acceptance-
to ourselves and others, spirituality, peace......
We are so busy and so worried about this,
We miss the fact we are Connected to all Life.
To other People.
To our Environment.
Not seeing that we contribute.
We are Part, We Give and Receive Life every Second.

... keep it coming, keep it flowing... the energy is eternal when it comes from your heart!

Ego

I can't stop thinking about you.
You laugh at me.
You make my life so hard.
I dislike you- What I dislike of others, remind me of same things in myself. Oh, I dislike you so much!
A slap on the face one more time- and I can see my reflection in the mirror laughing at me, pointing fingers at me.
Feels like torture!- mortified I am. I can't sleep, I am anxious.
So many parts of myself and sense of self.... So hard to let them go.
... cause on what else do you hold on to?

Expansion and Contraction

Expansion and Contraction-
the duality of the two is what makes me so exhausted.
The need to control how much I let go, how much I show of myself...
-like an ice cube in a hot summer day that it doesn't want to melt.
How much more energy it takes to stay as an ice cube,
rather than let go and become fluid- like fluid water.

The Power of Fear

When one opens up and is its fullest, there is no greater sense of freedom.
So what stops us? - for this should be our permanent state of being?

... the fear of being judged, not accepted, feared, hurt, not welcomed, ignored...

In fact it is our Fear the only one bringing feelings of insecurity, comfortless, and self-judgement
- NOT the freedom of being our true selves!

Breath in, and let it all Out!

When the day darkens in full summer.
Breath in and let it all out
If your dreams where crashed, if they were big and you had nowhere to put them. Breath in and let it all out.
When you feel like you are dying more than living. Breath in and let it all out.
When you feel your head is racing faster than your heart is pumping. Breath in and let it all out.
There's no secret potion, just follow your heart and leave your fears behind.

Mantra for 2013

I shall breath into presence/ especially during those times of uncomfort. I shall connect with my spirit/ that shines beneath the chaos of the self and the world around me/ where there's a deep silence and sense of peace murmured in the background. I shall respond not react to situations that trigger me/ as I won't condemned the messenger or myself. I shall connect with truthful love within/ be energy and vibrations within the forces of life/ rather than identifying to myself as a self described by a name, past experiences, future expectations, pains, accomplishments, and desires. I shall not move in life/ for the means to reach a goal to enhance my sense of self worth, but for inspiration, love, and life force. I shall let go of emotions that feed my ego and give me a sense of purpose, self-pity, or excuses/ I shall live in the moment consciously/ I shall be playful/ I shall surrender to love, life, and my spirit!

The Mayan Calendar

The winter solstice days begin to become longer once again as earth comes closer to the sun. With the winter solstice came the end of the mayan calendar for some, brought fears of the end of the world for others, the beginning of a new era, a new era of consciousness. For me these weeks brought a lot of questions of life understanding and with these came doubts. Senseless events where I have no understanding of a reason why. I could feel my pain and broken heart, to the point of judgement if its right to feel such pain, if its normal. Sometimes there is no explanation with the mind to those senseless events because we feel such pain that nothing our mind says will make us feel better. Our constant will to suppress pain, to be happy, feel good at all times to be good, do good to feed our self, our ego, our self worth to the point I had to question myself of my sanity, if its ok to feel such pain. But this is the time to surrender to the pain and understand everything in life has its place within the totality. Even though we can't understand it with our minds the answer is in love and within the expression of our essence.

This Moment

For just a second, forget of who you are. let go of that sense of self. For just a second, forget of your past. let go of self judgements, fears, pain, and assumptions. For just a second, let go and breath in this precious moment that's now. For just a second, forget about the future. let go of your expectations, hopes of self, and desires. For just a second let go. breath and let the love within resurface. there is no better you than who you are now. Rejoice in who you are now! Your unique expression of your essence in this moment! Surrender to yourself in this moment!

As light and heavy as a sand grain

All life is as minuscule and giant as an ant can be, and as the universe can be. We are all as fragile and as powerful. We all matter and we all have a role in life. We all deserve to be here and we all deserve respect. We are all connected and we all have a reason to be We all have an end and even that has a reason too.

For Lupe

Because our friendship is not only for the simple fact of being a woman but also of spirit Because our connection is not only of blood but because of our journey Because today its about you and I know tomorrow could be about me and both of us Because when we fall we will have each other to stand back up Because we hold hands from the depths of our hearts I wish you a happy birthday my beautiful sister! And may all your dreams come your way May this year be one to remember!! Love You, Sofi