Mantra for 2013

I shall breath into presence/ especially during those times of uncomfort. I shall connect with my spirit/ that shines beneath the chaos of the self and the world around me/ where there's a deep silence and sense of peace murmured in the background. I shall respond not react to situations that trigger me/ as I won't condemned the messenger or myself. I shall connect with truthful love within/ be energy and vibrations within the forces of life/ rather than identifying to myself as a self described by a name, past experiences, future expectations, pains, accomplishments, and desires. I shall not move in life/ for the means to reach a goal to enhance my sense of self worth, but for inspiration, love, and life force. I shall let go of emotions that feed my ego and give me a sense of purpose, self-pity, or excuses/ I shall live in the moment consciously/ I shall be playful/ I shall surrender to love, life, and my spirit!

The Mayan Calendar

The winter solstice days begin to become longer once again as earth comes closer to the sun. With the winter solstice came the end of the mayan calendar for some, brought fears of the end of the world for others, the beginning of a new era, a new era of consciousness. For me these weeks brought a lot of questions of life understanding and with these came doubts. Senseless events where I have no understanding of a reason why. I could feel my pain and broken heart, to the point of judgement if its right to feel such pain, if its normal. Sometimes there is no explanation with the mind to those senseless events because we feel such pain that nothing our mind says will make us feel better. Our constant will to suppress pain, to be happy, feel good at all times to be good, do good to feed our self, our ego, our self worth to the point I had to question myself of my sanity, if its ok to feel such pain. But this is the time to surrender to the pain and understand everything in life has its place within the totality. Even though we can't understand it with our minds the answer is in love and within the expression of our essence.

This Moment

For just a second, forget of who you are. let go of that sense of self. For just a second, forget of your past. let go of self judgements, fears, pain, and assumptions. For just a second, let go and breath in this precious moment that's now. For just a second, forget about the future. let go of your expectations, hopes of self, and desires. For just a second let go. breath and let the love within resurface. there is no better you than who you are now. Rejoice in who you are now! Your unique expression of your essence in this moment! Surrender to yourself in this moment!

As light and heavy as a sand grain

All life is as minuscule and giant as an ant can be, and as the universe can be. We are all as fragile and as powerful. We all matter and we all have a role in life. We all deserve to be here and we all deserve respect. We are all connected and we all have a reason to be We all have an end and even that has a reason too.

A Little Story...

Once upon a time all the creatures of earth were united in balance to the rhythms of nature. In human kind communities, everyone respected each other. The elders would pass their knowledge of medicine, farming, astrology, and so on to the young generation. They believed that everything on earth had a spirit within and they didn't only worshiped the great mother but also understood her. Animals and plants had their place on earth too of respect and knowledge. They were the spiritual teachers for human kind. But when humans evolved along with science and technology, becoming blinder and greedier, soon that connection that for so many years kept us in balance with nature disappeared. Animals and plants were still trying to connect with us but we were too far gone. Nowadays there are some that want to make amends with the Great Mother by still using science and technology. But we don't understand that balance can only come through connection. Connection to ourselves and the rhythms of nature. We can no longer act from the mind but start acting from the heart. Begin to truly feel again. This is the world we live in today. And no matter what, mother earth is still providing for our survival. She is still fighting for us. She still believes in us. So its time we start believing in ourselves!

For Lupe

Because our friendship is not only for the simple fact of being a woman but also of spirit Because our connection is not only of blood but because of our journey Because today its about you and I know tomorrow could be about me and both of us Because when we fall we will have each other to stand back up Because we hold hands from the depths of our hearts I wish you a happy birthday my beautiful sister! And may all your dreams come your way May this year be one to remember!! Love You, Sofi

Wild Women

This is for: The woman who run with wolves, woman of the circle of stones, woman who still search for the moon every night, and for those who seek for silence in nature. For those woman that share stories of wisdom, stories of the self, stories of the spirit. Women connected with the land, the spirit, and extension of the whole ~ with no beginning and no end: “Wild women we once were, domesticated we became. Howl to the moon and dance to the open sky! Come back to me ancient insight. Great Spirit whisper your wisdom when the last breath of day blows, when I stop believing in myself and in you. Great mother embrace me with the warmth of the sun, when I feel lonely and defeated. Show me the teachings of the river to find myself at ease in moments of challenge. Remind me that nature always accomplishes with patience, when I worry about my past, present and future. Remind me of the simplicity of being with the wisdom of a tree. Guide me through life’s mysteries, and not let me be afraid of the unknown by showing me the beauty in a star lighted sky. Wild women we once were, domesticated we became. Howl to the moon and dance to the open sky! find the balance within yourself and earth. Be free again."