The Spirit of the Red CedarTree- Circle of Stones Story

i lived a thousand years that's what the rings on my body say
roads filled with stories of an ancient time, a quiet time
scars from hard winters and strong storms
leaves that left me nourishing me and my surroundings
blooming flowers, brought new friends and good companions
warming and gracious moments, when i served as refugee to others
hugs and smiling moments, when i danced with other at the rhythm of the wind

i lived a thousand years that's what the rings on my body say
i lived a thousand years, until they cut me down
until i fall down hard to the ground in a big roar
the earth tremble as my body was breaking- shattered
until my body was detaching from my roots, my nourishing life

a thousand years i lived and more
today there is still a whole in those woods
there is still a part of me living there
a scar on the soil where i stood
silent wind blows on my grounds
i am the spirit of a red cedar tree
that lived a thousand years

My Future?- Circle Of Stones Story

hahaha! she always laughed in her younger age
but now she cant stop doing it
her laugh- loud and clear and everyone hears
her white long silver hair like a whole moon lighted night
a waterfall of light pouring into the ocean

her eyes tell a thousand stories- you can tell she cried a lot
of pain and laughter
oh! her hands- her poor hands
she use to look at them and say: " oh my hands my poor hands!
what would i do without my hands...
yes i know i have to take care of them"

she laughs and she laughs like an old tree she moves
nothing seems the same, she says
if i knew before ... i had my doubts that it might be this way but still thought i had more
but time never waits
hahahaha! she laughs so loud
if i knew but i guess i know now
at least i know now.

Sofi's Mantra

i shall always try to keep untruths out from my thoughts
i shall always listen to my heart and not my confused mind
i shall always believe my only freedom is the one i create for myself

fighting for that moment in life when time doesn't count but feel life

i shall always see light when life shows me only darkness
i shall always dig deep into my feelings when i can't understand or control
i shall always face my fears

fighting for that moment in life when time doesn't count but feels life

i shall always close my eyes in silence when my head gets too loud
i shall always listen to the voice of nature for advice
i shall always question myself and others, never agreeing without understanding

i shall never be scared of being wrong
i shall always find love behind every emotion
i shall always be true to myself and others
I shall always try to forgive even when they done me wrong

Shapeless

What’s an emotion?
Nothing... and everything
its shapeless
unless we give it a form
a shape: as a song, as a painting, as a touch, as a look, as a word, as an image

how do we know what are we feeling?
When did we discover the emotion of pain or joy?
When it was once described or when it was felt like a tear or a smile?

Like seasons there’s a time for everything
a time for growth, a time to shed our leaves, a time to bloom and a time to dry and provide our everything to others- to enhance those others with a chance of life
the continuation of ourselves

so everything is shapeless- no more than energy flowing
until we create a shape to that energy

Colors in Life

Once I thought that everything was yellow
those were my childhood days- where everything was bright as the day
Once I thought that everything was green
i was a kid, filled with hope- filled with innocent thoughts
Once i thought everything was red
growing up, when i learn what fear and pain meant

Once I thought that you would come into my life and rescue me
Once I thought that you would pull me out of every misery
but now I know there is no God, might you could still be my fantasy
but now I know there is no God, might you could still be my friend

Once I thought that everything was white
there was peace- there was bliss- i was discovering- i was growing- i was uncertain but filled with love and dreams
Once I thought that everything was blue- that everyday would rain
I would cry my heart out- until the next day

Once I thought that you would come into my life and rescue me
Once I thought that you would pull me out of every misery
but now I know there is no God, might you could be what I dream
but now I know there is no God, might would you please let me in or
let me out compltely

Once I thought that you would come into my life and rescue me
Once I thought that you would pull me out of every misery
Once i thought so many things... now i dont believe

my life... an abstract rainbow, intangible, colorful, beautiful, vibrant
a mystery, unreachable and free- for everyone except myself
I don't need a God, i need a rainbow
colorful even when everything is dark-a storm where there's a gleam of light
in the showers a light that brings hope to the heart
A rainbow that's all i need

If it was up to ME

Suddenly something went wrong along the way
and we got to the point, where the road split in two
night from day
black and white
right from wrong
truth from lies
far from close
and here we stand today
but if- it was- up to me
the sun- would shine everyday
and the moon- would be full
and fools- wouldn't be fooled
if- it was- up to me
dishonesty- wouldn't be a word
everyday would be spring
but that, if it was- up to me

If it was up to me
when the rough weather comes to your life
a rainbow would be shining up high
if- it was- up to me
I ll give you your everything
every dream that you cant reach
every need that you dont receive
but that if it was up to me
when you are asking for help
and there's no one around
you shout
you yell
and still no one comes
if- it was- up to me
your voice would be heard
and your heart I ll embrace
but that, if it was up to me
no misery
no regrets
no violence
no destruction
but that, if it was up to me

What are we supposed to do

All this time trying to figure out
what are we suppose to do

Nobody ever told us what went wrong
Nobody ever told us what was going on
And what choices to make to have a better consequence

All this time trying to figure out
what we are supposed to do

Fighting against society
that rules and conquers
molding us like bonsais
shaping our way of life
so we forget and follow the mass

All this time trying to figure out
what we re supposed to do

And we realized freedom is not against us
its within us
the only way to find it its by following our heart
there is no balance in black and white

All this time trying to figure out
what we re supposed to do
nobody ever told me what went wrong
nobody ever told me what was going on
and I spent all night
trying to figure out what was going on
I did the best I could, the best I knew

All this time trying to figure out what we’re supposed to do
nobody ever told us what went wrong
nobody ever told us what was going on
and what choices to make to have a better consequence
a different consequence